At this current moment in time I wish for peace. I want everything to work out even though I know that by being myself things usually take a turn for the worse. Why this happens, I have no clue. Might be because my mentality seems to run through the worst first and realize the best later. It might also be due to the fact that not a single person in my family seems to really care. Not just for me but for my unstable, childish hassles that seem to plague my mind. Sometimes I wonder how long I will live for (apparently type A personalities happen to have shorter life spans and are more likely to die from coronary diseases). I wonder if I will ever make it out of the hole and take a breath of freedom that doesnt come with a hefty pricetag.
I work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Ain’t it sad.
Reality bites. And facing it this early shortened my lifespan about 20 or so years. I swear that this cannot be healthy for anyone. I don’t think I could wish this upon anyone.
My dream
My dream of serenity and peace will not be achieved for a while so better build up my confidence fast.
